Down the Rabbit's Hole

Questioning our own existence is not an easy thing but it helps expand the mind, and expansion leads to transformation and self-development.

I love taking things to the next level, going deep into the rabbit’s hole, would you like to join me?

Let’s talk about your personality.

How much do you identify with your personality? Do you think that it is who you are?

How attached to it are you, and how fiercely do you defend it?

Let me break the news to you… you are not your personality!

Your personality is the product of all your life experiences, and the meanings you have been giving those experiences.

You see, when you were born you were like a little sponge absorbing every experience you had, learning about the body and your environment. You had no personality, that came later in life.

If it wasn’t there when you were born, it means you existed prior to the personality and therefore you cannot be the personality itself.

And furthermore, your personality changes throughout the years. The things you like and dislike change, you learn behaviours and patterns from your surroundings and adapt to the environment in order to fit in and survive.

A few years ago, I had this realization that changed completely the way I saw myself.

I woke up in the middle of the night (I have a lot of weird experiences in the middle of the night), and I started thinking who would I have become if my parents had not separated when I was 3 years old?

You see, most patterns in my life were ruled by the fear of being abandoned. I wasn’t aware of them until I stopped and looked at myself, but the truth is that I was afraid of being left behind and losing connections. So, I held on to the connections I had for dear life, even when they were really bad for me.

That night I thought, if I hadn’t had that experience, who would I be?

I saw myself in a completely different way. I was a strong independent woman, with very meaningful relationships and a sense of confidence that seemed almost impossible to imagine.

And with this vision came the realization that I would have been a different person altogether. Same body, different personality and a different outlook on the world.

That moment changed a lot within me. When I realized I was not my personality, I started questioning what I was really.

And you, do you understand what you are?